Wednesday, October 29, 2008

'She is the one'

Never will I have imagined this day to come,
eventually one day but not right now,
definitely not today.

I guess it still feels like yesterday when you looked into my eyes with such fondness; then the mere pain you brought on us when you closed the chapter.
Fortunately we ended it on good terms.
Never will I imagine extending my most heartfelt congratulations to you this soon.
Who am I to say, they say you'd know she's the one when she comes along. It's so great to find that one special person you want to annoy for the rest of your life

Congratulations, M!

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

This is how we do it

Baby, let's build a home together. I'm at

Despite all claims, I am not like that in real life for whatever that I've done as illustrated as below. This is just purely an act out of love, an exchange for a friendship. Yes, I bend backward for friends. No, I was kidding. I am cheap because I am Asian (yea, typical stereotyping innit? but they'd like to believe it anyways).

Ways to save a dime or two at IKEA restaurant:
  • Buy 20 meatballs (Value for money, repeat after me, value for money) and share it with a partner-in-crime. You see, 10 meatballs valued at 7.95 but 20 meatballs cost a dollar more. So you do the math.
  • Cup over glass, both cost $1.75 anyways, but the difference is that - cup: you are given the alternative/unlimited choices of any beverage (water to soft drinks to coffee), glass: you are limited to only water and soft drinks (note: ONLY).
  • This is not on their beverage menu but kudos to the most 'innovative' frugal guru of all, get ready for - jeng, jeng, jeng........HOT CHOCOLATE. Now, we could save that $2.50 for takeaway and enjoy the liberty of unlimited refills, couldn't we?

  • Grab your cup, rinse it using the spring water dispenser, get the chocolate powder (which is meant for your coffee) and pour it into your cup LAVISHly. Then, add in the forth milk and there you have yourself a cup of hot chocolate, exactly the same as the one your local cafe served you.
  • And finally, always remember the first rule of cheapo-ism: value for money. Not even a single purchase should be passed up from this golden rule. Even the ice-cream is not spared. Refill it as many times as possible! Ignore the angry stares and the long line waiting behind.

  • Quoted by my ultimate best partner-in-crime: "You wanna get free stuff, you gotta have a thick face" Be shameless, so to speak. True words spoken with flair. Those weak-hearted like me should never engage in such activities because you will only get yourself nothing but trouble. I shall just leave those jobs to pros because I am happy to pay extra, for the least I got what I want. It's just gonna cost me a little more.

Did you ever stop to think, and forget to start again?

My thoughts are free to go anywhere, but it's surprising how often they head in your direction. It almost comes on as an annoyance. I still remember the promise of a stroll along the white sandy beach. Just the two of us. I guess that kind of memory wasn't meant for us. Being nostalgia for what we have lost is more bearable than nostalgia for what we have never had... I am glad we never had that walk, or else, the beauty of the beach will remain tainted forever. Now, we wouldn't want that, don't we?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Count him as south america

She inched closer to the computer.

Her mind willed her not to open the laptop, screamed, No! No! No! You'll regret this. Bad Idea! Bad Idea! and for a moment it sounded so realistic she wondered if her inner voice has somewhat detached from her mind, but she could only hold out for so long. Four seconds later, her fingers were flying across the keyboard. Ten seconds after that, she was face-to-face with his Facebook page.

"Oh, god, no," she moaned aloud, stretching backward in her chair and staring at the computer warily, as though it might explode. She knew she shouldn't click on it, but there was no turning back. She sat up straight with her shoulders down and her chest jutted out, took a deep breath and moved the cursor to the link. Before anything, she saw several thumbnail shots. She knew this was a very bad idea, that it was stupid from an intellectual stand-point and toxic from a sanity one, but by now it was out of her control.


The image smack right at her face. The first frame remained frozen on the screen. She studied, examined, every square inch of very single photograph consumed her. Then... she saw what she has been looking for. A reassurance that something is no longer there. She swallowed hard, forced herself to lift her finger and continuing the clicking.

Click. Click.

Click Click. Click.

Click. Click. Click. Click.

She finishing clicking through the entire album, briefly surveyed her level of nausea, and hunkered down to start again from the beginning.

It was going to be a very long night.

Thursday, October 23, 2008

This is not a love song

To say I am so jealous that a task that stressed me out is as easy as a walk in the park for some is just an understatement. Everyone has their own level of skill, and mine just happen to be very low in a certain way. I offer no excuse, I am that dumb. Odd to say, somehow, a few days ago, I had the sudden feeling to stop doing what I was and called my mom. We had quite a long chit chat. As opposed to the grumpiness that I was supposed to reflect, mom however thought I was pretty much on cloud nine. Yes, my mom can be delusional and denial sometimes. Perhaps because I did not take out my frustration on her that lead to this optimism.

"Do not let yourself keep thinking that if something is difficult, it must be bad for you." A tough challenge doesn't always a good lesson in life, Sometimes, it's just a pain in the neck.

To add stress, after a few gossiping/bonding/updating moments with mom, we suddenly came to a very absurd conclusion that breaking heart is the new black. Call us cynical because cynical, we are. All I heard around are news of recent breakups of friends', friends' of friend, friends' of someone's friend. Reasonings (or rather as evasions in my dictionary) are long-distance, weary relationships, worn-out feelings, personality incompatibility to name a few. What I see lacking is 'responsibility' and 'loyalty'. If you can't give any fly about commitment, don't make one - ever, period.

If you think I am going on a full-fledged talk about relationships and commitment, you could save that for another rainy day. I am so jaded with my ever failing relationships that I do not know how it feels like to be out of love. Shrug. Seriously.

I do not know why but this photo does not do my joy any justice.
I was actually very happy.
I am going to burn that tshirt - someday, someday.

Thursday, October 16, 2008


It is official. I. am. FAT.

Time to stop living in denial and just accept the painful fact that I try to hide. Note the absence of the self-rightful narcissist. Just when I could finally take the liberty in breathing through all the stress during my Ballarat trip, I stumbled upon this sigh that just smack right at my face! Talk about absurdity. le sigh.

As the dollar keeps crashing, my corpulent never cease to grow in a very immaculate pace. Yeah, I got the drift too. Diet much?
I doubt.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Spring came, Rain fell

Beautiful photos somehow have an odd way of calming me down and sooth my unsettling heart.
Am I expecting too much of myself?
I wish I could breathe through this constant frustration.
Leave alone those who just love pushing my buttons.
"Anger is a killing thing: it kills the man who angers, for each rage leaves him less than he had been before - it takes something from him."

Yea, sure anger took my sanity and youth away.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Friday, October 10, 2008

Get yourself together

As you all know, I am a true blue commitment-philic/maniac. Precisely six months of pining over something no longer there,
am. finally. over. it.

I am never this happier and elated about my freedom. I am even proud to declare to the whole world about my blissful singledom. Nevertheless, we all know that won't last a decade before I would start venturing into another, god forbid, emotional rollercoaster (turmoil) again.

But every bump and bruises along the ride are just stepping stones to something thriving innit? The lessons learned from past mistakes are going to come in handy for future endeavor -- and they're going to ensure that you reach a much higher level of success!

I think I am willing to take a little bit of a risk with my heart again.

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Testament to Youth in Verse

Hold on to your undergarment, boys and girls.

Justice - A Cross The Universe

Seriously get ready for intense electrorgasm!
Cum November 24th.

Now you're really living

, who promised to build a roof above us,
got us this, under £5.

"Now, we can call this our home!"
He grins.

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Time to pretend

What are the three corny words?
Started with second-person and ended with first-person.

She loves me so

If you think for once I am still there
waiting, hoping
I would take off your blindfold
I am just someone you used to know
I am not there
for you
you're all by yourself this time
Love is lost and I don't know why
but now is about time
I've made up my mind
I would put on my heavier boots
I am sorry
we are not intended
We all made mistakes and the water separated us
the space between the words grew
It's helpless
there is nothing to be said or done
patience is in short supply
slaves to our impulse, fear of our emotions
not knowing where the shore is
we are divided by the ocean
the answer isn't for us
Take my best wishes
One day you will find your phone, your coffee cup and you will make things appear again

Delayed Devotion

If you are reading this, you are still RockStar,
forever and ever.

The False Contender

What is the one word you use to describe the one person who would do their darndest to avoid you? Emails go unanswered, phone calls are never returned. Sometimes they just give you the feeling that they either did something they don't want to tell you about, or are afraid you already know about it. Don't you just hate it that you have to track them down and make them spill? Is it even your own best interests reaching out to them and be proactive about the situation? Are they possibly going to fess up until it's far too late to fix whatever they've broken?

I don't know about it myself as sometimes,
I play that annoying role.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Infinite Playlist

The connection between teenagers with one another through music and the discovery of new and different bands is effectively projected throughout the course of the film.

A fun romp through New York's night-time scene and the growing independent musical scene of the Big Apple. Killer indie soundtracks. A Juno-reminiscent? Not quite, surprisingly a whole different entity. Definitely one to watch out for this summer.

[Nick & Norah's infinite playlist]

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

That bleeding heart show

It's time to clean my emotional house. I need to toss out things that are keeping me from moving forward. It is not that I am still nursing a heartache because that's one thing, but if I am still wallowing in my self pity and pain, then that's quite another. Let go of the past and focus on dreams for the future. I've been carrying this pain for long. The fact is, I can decide to be happy or decide to be sad. Which will it be?


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